when in Doubt
with Renée Miller
this guided prayer <mp3>
As you prepare to pray, quiet your soul and be aware that there
is a presence of stillness and holiness in you and all around you
as you listen to the ringing of the bell.
“#18—As now the sun shines down at noon”
When the truth of God seems false
When the truth of God seems false
Or faith a construct of the mind,
Still prayer can lead us to a place of trust
A place of trust that is not blind.
Music: "Conditor memoria, plainsong, Mode 2"
Even when the emptiness of doubt disturbs your soul, the
Holy One is nurturing within you a seed of faith.
is the substance of what we hope for—the evidence of what
we cannot see.” —Hebrews
“How long, O Lord? Will you forget me for ever? How long will
you hide your face from me? How long shall I have perplexity in
my mind, and grief in my heart, day after day?...Look upon me and
answer me, O Lord my God; give light to my eyes, lest I sleep in
13: 1, 2a, 3
Reading from the Bible
“Ask, and it will be given you; search, and you will find;
knock and the door will be opened for you. For everyone who asks
receives, and everyone who searches finds, and for everyone who
knocks, the door will be opened.” —Matthew
followed by Silence
Now close your eyes for a time of brief reflection and meditation.
Take a deep breath and quiet your soul.
things simply are mysteries. No amount of investigation or scholarship
can provide verification for what is most life-giving to humans.
Things like faith, hope and love cannot be proven by scientific
or intellectual inquiry. They are true because we know them to be
true in our heart even though there is no outward confirmation of
their truth. When, however we are in a place of uneasiness or fear,
the very things we intuitively know to be true seem suddenly ephemeral.
begin to wonder if we have been wrong, if we have misjudged our
intuition, if God really is nothing more than a hopeful image
created for ourselves in our minds. But then, in the flash of an
instant we feel a warmth in our soul, or view a sunrise that halts
our breath, or experience love full and free and we know the Holy
One has glanced our way. No external proof tells us—we know
it in the deep of our being.
yourself the question, “When has my doubt been turned to faith?”
Take some moments now to offer the concerns of your heart to heaven.
Remember those who are in pain, those who are afraid, those who
are alone, those whom you love, those who are dying, and those who
are already in heaven, and pray for the needs of your own life.
“Gracious God, there are times when my ability to trust seems
absent. My heart longs for truth and I even find within me a kernel
of desire to believe, but my mind seems unable to grasp the truth
and belief that I seek. Let your sure and true presence wash over
me, shedding shafts of light where only darkness resides, and in
those shafts of light may I see the outline of your face. I ask
this for the sake of your love. Amen.” —Renée
May your soul rest confidently in heavens’ touch this day
and may the Holy One hover over you with care and blessing.
The creation waits for you, waits for you to see
All the wondrous hidden truth, setting your soul free.
There are times when faith feels hard, when God seems unreal,
Yet within your deepest heart, heav’ns love you can feel.
Text: Renee Miller
Music: "Adoro devote, French church melody, Mode 5,"
music accompanying this worship session is "The Grandfather
Mountain Suite: Wince," by Daniel Foster Johnson, © 2006.
To learn more about Daniel Foster Johnson, or to purchase his CD
From the Attic Window, please visit his web